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/2:53 PM

its so saddening k.
at de start of year..c2 was v united. we were v close, we were all gd frenz. but yet so much happened these 8 mths. we r nw going our seperate ways, wif our own cliques.conflicts happened. ppl r ignoring each other. ignorance is NOT bliss k. i dunno how this prob can ever resolve. a quarrel some unhappiness. was de cause. i was de cause of this. i wanted to make up wif her. to once again b frenz wif her. i succeeded. but not long after dat... her close frenz started ignoring her. they r my frenz too. dat makes all my frenz ignoring her. i wanna b frens wif her. but i cant get other to do it. they hv seen de bad side of her. so hv i. but... i realli wanna forget all these. i noe u all keep saying its her fault. she say her close frens last time din spare a thought for her feelings. but nw they ignore her. b coz at de start... she din spare a thought for their feelings. dats y.... but this is so complicating. my dear frenz... pls b frenz once again. u all will b happier. this is so stressful... gotta handle such stuff.okok... i noe its my fault for this. my dear frenz... so sorry to get all of u into this. de flare up was btw mi n her. sorry to get u all into trouble. i juz thought after making up... things will b fine. but who noes it took a turn for de worse. i dun understand y. c2 is nw so not bonded. not united. it was so diff frm de c2 in my happi memories. besides. there is so much going on in life.
havin perforamnces. n its common test. i wanted to skip it. to study. but no. i cant. my seniors could. y cant i. unfair k. i choose to study... i get scolded for missing dance. i go for dance... i get scolded when my results r horrible. k. those ppl dunno wat im going through. i hv totally no idea y teachers think im some genius or wat. havin so high expectations. pls k. im not clever. im v stupid. n most of all. i hv no time to study... evrybody thinks im some super human or wat. they think i can do evrything. my frenz too. pls k. u all hv de potential n ability to do stuff. dun juz b coz i back out u all oso. i v bz. i realli cannot afford de time to b involved in so mani things. dont depend on mi alone... im juz human.. not goddess or wadeva. its indeed sad dat we hafta redo pbl. its lyk i wan to. but i realli dun hv de time...stressful k. my results hv been slackin so horribly... theres training.. mid autumn festival comin. more performances. teachers day comin. blah blah. i realli dun hv so much energy. im realli v v v tired. sleeping late each nite.. doing revision n stuff. sometimes i get back frm dance past midnite. den hafta do hw. n other stuff. i cant help it. handing in sloppy work. or unfinished work. im alwayz wanting to sleep in class. im realli tired. i realli wanna pay attention in class. but i dun hv de energy to even open my eyes. mr dear frenz r usually comfort to mi in such cases. but after all dat has happened.... it adds to my worries n trouble. each brand new week seems to b filled wif more probs n conflicts. i ask myself y. im dumbfounded. i was de cause. i was my fault for flaring up. but my frenz keep saying its HER fault. i agree.. but u all shudden treat her liddat oso. but dat time... i realli cant control anymore. if i had kept it to myself. i wud hv exploded. im realli sorry. she had caused mi to b burning with anger...helpless.irritated...n speechless at times. i dunno wat to do. i realli could bear it no longer. i thought i was onli a prob btw mi n her. but de situation has worsen. de class is nw in a such a state b coz of mi. truely sorri. i realli hv no wish to b de class chairperson. n it will onli add to my worries n stress. sigh. y is this all happening. my dear frenz. pls dun comfort mi on this.i will onli break down. gimme time. i will resovle de prob i created. i wrote this coz im realli to stressed up. i hafta let it out. u can dont bother abt this. i juz needed to let things out.

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